When I can´t Speak

Hola Familia y Amigos!!  

Well I just finished a mini bawl fest alone, reading your experiences in Guatemala and the revelation you always receive for me.  Thank you.  So so so much.  I feel so edified reading of those experiences and seeing your pictures.  Mom you look so Latin in your typical dress!!!  CUURRR :)  And Dallin is a giant now--not ok with me.

Well I don't know why I am so blessed.  But that's how I feel today.  So beyond blessed and so tiny and unworthy of those blessings for being so weak and complaining in trials and sicknesses--I'm a wimp right?!  But the Lord is SO merciful.  I don't even have words to describe what I feel.

So to begin :)

Tuesday morning I woke up and was like dreaming about 3 Nephi 11 and felt like I should re-read it because we would teach it that day.  In that chapter we find also the Doctrine of Christ and I noticed something interesting--that when Christ comes and lets the people touch him and come to him one by one, after that happens, he calls a prophet and apostles and in the scriptures it says that He conferred upon them the sacerdocio (te doy poder...). Then immediately He began to teach about baptism.  I thought to myself wow--the first two things Christ addressed in the Americas were: 1) the Priesthood and 2) Baptism.  Shows us what is important to the Savior, right?  Justamente that evening we were with William and he said he had been reading 3 Nephi 11!!!  WOW.  So we read with him and though he felt the Spirit, continued to deny baptism.  That was the final lesson for now.  But I felt great Tuesday giving it my ALL.  :)

Wednesday we had a tender mercy with 2 girls that we had taught a couple times, Kristel and Valeria, and their mom Veronica never had really wanted to let them go to church, etc just learn.  Well they are always SO excited about singing, reading, the church programs, etc.  We got there because they had come to church last Sunday miraculously!!!  The mom then told us that her girls will be able to keep going to church, that she was committed to supporting them in this, etc etc.  MIRACLE!!
That night we had a FHE with a family and the theme was Jesus Christ.  We all got to bear testimony and learn about the life of our Savior, and I just LOVE talking about Christ.  I love Him so much and the Spirit is always so sweet when we talk about our Redeemer.

Thursday I got really teary reading and re-reading the emails of my family and their experiences in the brigadas and just felt the special spirit of missionary work and service, and how much I LOVE this work and always have.  I envy---SO envy those who are just beginning their missions.  :)
We had a special experience with Isaac that day calling us because he needed some help clearing up some of his doubts.  We got there and it was so neat to hear his feelings and wanting to repent and be better, and though he has improved so much, he has the deep desire to not even think bad things or listen to them and wants to repent, and said that he wants to be 100% clean blessing the Sacrament because if not how can he have everyone else eating his sins?  haha He is so good and it touched my heart so much.  The best part is we had planned a lesson for him with the EXACT things he needed help with.  How I love the Lord and personal revelation.
Thanksgiving dinner = schwarma with Fam Cedeno--Ariana and Kleber :)

Friday I woke up and was feeling pretty dizzy and not all the way better from my infection and a bit down again because I was studying and then felt so sick I had to lie down.  I was resting when the phone rang and the Assistants were calling us to do the 12 week program verification for Hna Diez---I was like are you kidding me right now? Man!  But anyway, we talked to them and wow it was SO amazing.  It's always EXACTLY what I need.  He said that President and they trust us and we are doing a good job, and he said that if we are being obedient and diligent, the rest is up to the Lord and our time often isn't His time.  He asked about William and said that we left a seed planted super deep in his heart and he will never ever forget us.  He then talked about the Doctrine of Christ and the 3 aspects of it (learning, applying, teaching it) and then read Alma 26:22 about applying the Doctrine of Christ and the blessing for that.  Wow they said the President said the mysteries of God are how to help investigators, etc.  Things we need!  We have to have faith and WORK and pray like crazy.  Then he said that after trials come the blessings and the fruits of our labors.  Then he said that maybe the fruits of our labors wouldn't be tons of baptisms but attributes we will be taking home with us.  (I was shocked to hear that from an assistant! wow) He then told Hna Diez she has to learn everything she could from me and take and absorb every good thing I have because they consider me excellent and she has to be ready to train.  He then said,  "Hna Bryan, you should have the vision that you are training a trainer!!"  I then told him that actually that had been my vision and goal, and lately I've been saying that I'm the new companion and want her to take initiative and control for when she has to train.  And he said, "Man, the hermanas are always a step ahead of us."  hahaha  Then he said, "Well there is a scripture President has specifically asked us to share with you two."  He read Eccl 4: 9-10.  Wow how does President always know?!!!  He truly receives revelation for us and loves us.  He said if one is sick, the other should help out and lift her up and vice versa.  He then said we have trials and challenges because we are being prepared for something a lot bigger.
It was so uplifting and edifying and exactly what we both needed to grow closer in our trials and realize it was ok--this was preparing us and we have to be ok and work and be happy!!!
We had a BEAST day and put 3 baptismal dates!  Ariana will be baptized on Saturday!!!!!!  We love her so much.  Pray for her that she will stay firm in her decision.
Valeria and Kristel will be baptized the 8th---pray for them that Veronica will see their desires and still let them be baptized.

Saturday we had a good day and then went to support the ZLs in their baptism because the kids of the hermana that was getting baptized were going to sing.  While practicing and just playing the piano waiting for them, Hna Diez started crying and she said she is going to miss me so much and we cried together and I had a conversation that was SO similar to one I had with my trainer, Hna Angulo.  It was very special.
Crazy stuff happened and the baptism got canceled and then re-put together and started at 9:20 pm!!!  Crazy stuff haha but the Spirit was SO strong when the kids sang "I am a Child of God," and the hermana was bawling and the elders also.  We love our crazy leaders haha.

Sunday morning we were running late to church and standing on the street waiting for a bus or taxi and NOTHING was passing.  I began to pray in my mind for someone or some car to pass by so we could get there on time and didn't even get done saying Amen in my mind when Ariana and Kleber in their car came passing by to go to church and we hopped in with their kids.  The Lord is so aware of us and our tiny needs, and He always shows His love for us!  I felt so in family going to church with them and their funny kids, etc.
Sunday in church I began counting investigators and writing their names, and Valeria and Kristel were there, Ariana, and then looked around and realized that the daughter of 2 investigators had come with her friends, and then looked and low and behold Maria Jose (one fo the girls we taught like 3 weeks ago and then later didn't want us to visit her anymore) was sitting in the back with some friends.  I began cracking up silently in sacrament meeting as I shared all the blessings I saw all around me with my companion, and she looked at me in awe, and us in awe of how much the Lord was blessing us after opposition.  Wow!!!

All in all, I love the Lord, I love being a missionary.  I do question how much more I could have done or given to show all the love and gratitude I have for my Savior and Redeemer and His Atonement.  I depend on His grace daily, and joy in the light of the Gospel and love of missionary work.  How blessed I feel to be a very small instrument in His hands.  I love the scriptures and testify of their truthfulness!!!  I was so impressed this week with Alma 46:15, 20-21 of Moroni's invitation to the people to make covenants with the Lord to show their faith, and how people came RUNNING to make covenants.  They really understood the importance of making and keeping covenants and the blessings they would receive.  Do we understand?  Would we come running to make covenants with our Lord and God?  Let us keep the covenants we have made and treasure them.  Show the Lord you love Him :)  I love this work!!!!!!  And I love you :)

Love,
Hermana Bryan

Disciples of Christ

Beautiful Sunset in Ecuador

Hola Familia y Amigos!

Welp another week of full challenges!  Haha literally these last 2 weeks have been CRAZY full of oposition.  But that just means that things have to get better, right? :)  The Lord is teaching me a lot!

Monday we had an awesome practice with our ZLs practicing the song, and I loved helping them reach their notes and sing better--I imagine that's how Jeffrey and other voice teachers feel all the time :)  It's rewarding!

Afterwards, we had another lesson with William and it was INCREDIBLE because my comp extended the baptismal invitation and halfway through, William interrupted her and said, "Yes.  But not Saturday."  hahahaha  It was like he knew, and after that kept hiding behind the pillows, knowing that he had his answer.

Tuesday we had an awesome Zone meeting about the Doctrine of Christ and sang "I Will Not be Still"--it was really special.  We love our ZLs so so much because they are always animating us and sending us texts that make us laugh and it's just great to have their support.  Well we went to William's house and he was a bit weird and different, and it was strange.  We also went to Ariana, and her husband and her expressed to us their gratitude and love and said that they will never ever forget us because we are the first missionaries who have really taken the time and diligence and love to help their family and be there always helping them progress and with Ariana, etc.  Their words touched us so so much.

Wednesday we saw a GORGEOUS sunset and that was a huge tender mercy from the Lord that day :) Also we found out the last part in our drama of scary and dangerous things that have been happening to us, and I honestly have had to be SUPER aware and have protected us from a few situations--the Lord has truly helped me.  Wednesday night was pretty scary and good news is that the members and ZLs were behind us 100% of the way and checking up on us when we went to bed, and at 6:30 in the morning on the dot to make sure we were ok, etc.  But I don't want you guys to worry because things are already taken care of and it was just opposition, and the adversary always trying to scare us.  What a piece---that guy!

Thursday I woke up and a pot of boiling water spilt all over my left hand--that was fun haha--more opposition.  Also I woke up so confused from what was happening, and questioned myself and many other things.  No good--I couldn't even concentrate while studying so we called our leaders to have a meeting with them and it was wonderful.  We were able to tell them everything and the solutions we had come up with and they agreed, and we all felt great about it (like the brother of Jared had to find a solution and then the Lord would help him). They also gave us blessings and in my blessing, Elder Zepeda blessed me with a few things that are actually in my patriarchal blessing, and that I would be able to be super in tune with the Spirit and that I would be strong and prepare myself for the many challenges that would come after the mission, and that I would be very strong.  After that I was like, oh great!  If this is just going to continue, I should just stay here hahaha.  But then I was like, duh Sister Bryan, there will always be challenges and trials!  It's a perfection process and I am FAR from ready and perfect, so how great that the Lord is preparing me for those!

Thursday William decided not to be baptized, and we even prayed with him and everything and he said he got an answer that he was fine where he was, etc.  I don't know if we did something wrong to lose him or what, but he had his answer from the Lord and didn't follow it.  We still have hope, as do the leaders, but man. I know someday :)  

Friday we literally felt the Lord's protection and fulfillment of our blessings and we were excited to keep on going despite opposition!  The Lord also blessed us with a perfect situation with Ariana.  She was alone and we got to talk to her about sacrifices and watch a short video and she was touched and said she was willing to make that sacrifice to be baptized.  However, not quite yet.  She said she doesn't want to wait a long time either but not immediately, etc.  But that is a huge huge progress from what it was before!!!

Saturday I found out I have an intestinal infection again.  Hard day but Ariana and her husband--we had a great lesson with them and helped Kleber recognize the need to help his wife with household duties so she can go to church, etc.  hahaha He wanted to kill me but sorry buddy! :)  Also we got to sing with the ZLs in their baptism and once again, so grateful for them and their friendship and leadership in our lives.

Yesterday Ariana came to church!!!  So did a few others, but WIlliam, no.  The Lord protected us yet again and we had a wonderful sacrament meeting. Afterwards, the Bishop called all the leaders and us together in a mini meeting and we felt like we were in a movie with superheroes reuniting to set a plan, and it was awesome how much they are supporting us now.  Maybe the Lord used these situations to wake the ward up and support us and have ward missionaries, etc. :)  I think so!  But it's so comforting to know they are supporting us and the Lord is protecting us.  We had a lesson with Armando again and sometimes it's crazy how stubborn the human is in resisting the Father's will.  But we are not giving up.

Lots of things on my mind and in my heart these last few days.  It's hard being sick yet again and not having people who want to progress even though they know this is true.  I'm trying to get animos again and I know I need to give more and do my best and not let the opposition get to me!  Hna Vidrio has been heaven sent helping me with medical things and also being there emotionaly when I need it and showing me love.  I know the Lord has placed people in my path in this time for a reason.  I was reading Alma 38:2-5 today and it really touched me again that I need to endure to the end, and REMEMBER that when I place my trust in God, He delivers me!  I've done it before!  All my mission!  And I can do it again.  I need to fully trust Him, rely on theAtonement and keep moving forward :)  That's my goal this week---try to try harder and trust in the Lord and give more of me despite all this opposition and I know He will bless us.

I know this work is incredible.  I love my Savior.  I know that trials are given to us to perfect us, mold us, help us remember things we forget often, and to be able to help others as well.  I trust in the Lord and in His will and need to be a better representative of Him daily and will strive to do so :)  Thank you for your prayers and love.  I love you!!!  

Hermana Bryan

Life is Hard, NOT the Gospel

Hola Familia y Amigos!!  

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Odie and Papa!!!!!

Well this week life and the mission was way hard but I love that quote from Lawrence E. Corbridge that the Gospel sure isn't hard even though people make it seem like it!  It helps us through our hard times.

Monday was a way rough day and that is hard cuz it's our only day to recuperate but ya pues! :)

Tuesday was awesome because Hna Diez did her verification and the ZLs in that practice almost didn't have any suggestions--she is progressing so much and didn't need my help that day.  That was wonderful to see.  Isaac accompanied us on Tuesday which was awesome to see and it's always so cool to see new converts ready and willing to share the Gospel.  He gave us a reference and bore testimony.  This day we were walking in the street and saw a man walking by and, well I guess this needs a little history so I will go back a bit--on Halloween, a man passed by with a suitcase and I saw him and noted something strange but didn't talk to him.  Then later on in the night, he crossed our path again but before we could talk to him didn't know where he had gone.  I immediately said a prayer in my mind and said to Heavenly Father that I was so sorry for not talking to a person He had put in our path twice, and I promised Him that if this person crossed our path again I would talk to him no matter what.  So Tuesday we were walking and talking and I looked up and this man walked right past us and I recognized him and yelled out and ran back, "Excuse Me!!!  Hi nice to meet you!" hahahaha He smiled and introduced himself but before we said we were missionaries, he told us he would like to talk to us and asked where we could sit down!  We were stunned.  His name is Ludwig and says he is looking for the truth because he wants to change his life and serve God. Cool experience (or so we thought haha). 

Tuesday night the Hermano who lives below us called us all night updating us on elections and when they finished, called us to tell us the results.  Crazy but I kind of predicted it and actually so did the Book of Mormon!  Mosiah 29:26-27.  The world can't get better before Christ comes :)

Wednesday was one of the most tiring days EVER, and man we were so drained physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, everything.  Ariana told us that she has thought about baptism so many times but she is Jehovah's Witness and her whole family too, and started bawling saying that in that religion when you leave that religion you are considered Apostate and none of your family can ever talk to you again.  She said that was her fear because she is really close to her Dad and that kills her to think about.  That's the only thing holding her back--knowing her dad won't speak to her if she gets baptized.  Wow we are praying hard she will recognize the importance of sacrifice and the recompense that will come but man, hard situation no?  

Leaving that draining lesson we get a text from William like every other day this week, saying he was way too busy and couldn't meet with us, etc but he had his second interview with the ZLs and I wasn't accepting that, so crying in the street, haha, we marched over to his house and made a deal, and my comp helped him with physics quickly and we went to his interview.

After his interview, he came out so gentle and kind and although he is always like that and always shining, he had a new look and face and was like super super shining and so sweet and happy and calm--like Christ-like and said he couldn't get baptized because his high school is Catholic and it's a requirement to do the confirmation, etc or you can't graduate, but in 2 yrs Elder Hernandez told him he could, and he was so excited for his baptism in 2 yrs and told us not to worry--he would tell people it was because of us, etc.  At that moment, my heart broke and something died inside, and I was past the point of tears.

Thursday I woke up DEAD because Wednesday night I wasn't able to sleep hardly at all--I was worried all night long about our investigators and their hard situations and their salvation and the blessings they would receive, and our goals, and what we could do, etc.  I woke up like dead and a zombie in all forms, but the Lord blessed us with revelation in personal study.

We were practicing a song with the ZLs when the phone rang and it was WILLIAM!!!  Wow that never happens.  He called us for physics help so we quickly accepted and took advantage to teach him afterwards.  Before we could start, he asked us about what a fast was because he wanted to do it and wanted to do it right.  We explained to him the law of the fast and the blessings and how to do it.  I suggested to him to include in his fast that God could bless him with the courage and strength to follow the answer he already has. He nodded and said, "That's the hardest part right?  Following the answer."  I agreed and shared a personal experience, and he shared he had actually thought about including that.  Then he shared with us underlined scriptures in the BOM he had liked and we shared scriptures in the Bible that touched him and he underlined them, etc (all things that never have happened with him, and it showed us the Lord really had touched his heart and opened it in the interviews wowwwwww).  He committed to fast on Saturday and we told him we would join him!

Friday I ate guatita--SICK.  Look it up.  It made me SO sick in all ways.  We had some really uncomfortable scary situations with Ludwig (I was SO uncomfortable and bothered after we taught him Wednesday and he came to the Elders' baptism Friday, and he seems like an elect from what he says but something was telling me otherwise and it spiritually bothered me.  I think the Elders thought I was crazy but I couldn't deny what I felt and be ok with it).  Also a very scary situation almost happened but thank heavens for the strong impressions of the spirit and how immediate it was that I began to run, and my comp followed me and we were protected to get home okay.  So grateful for discernment and the Spirit!!

Saturday I was excited to actually be there (back home) with all of you and continue this work but in different ways, and start on my goals.  A few personal challenges and feelings I was strugging with--I'm tired of being a mom and senior comp and having to be the one to be in charge, haha, but oh well!!

The Lord blessed us to go to Jennifer's house and her mom needed us.  She began bawling and sharing her experience of how she feels--her husband left them and everything she is going through.  She said the Lord sent us and we were able to share the Atonement and be there when the Lord needed us to be.

Sunday, William was ready to go to church and dizzy from fasting but felt great spiritually!  Told us after his fast that he felt so so calm and peaceful and HE JUST SHINES!!!!!!  It's crazy cuz he doesn't even have the Spirit yet!!  Imagine when he does :)  Pray hard he accepts a date for this Saturday.  I know the Lord worked miracles in this fast we did.  Also he told us yesterday he wanted to pay tithing and how to do it.

Sunday our plans totally changed, but the Lord again had us be where we needed to be.  The Fam Gonzalez is a family who is like our family here.  The dad isn't a member but the daughters and mom are and the dad has had millions of missionaries haha pass by and teach him, etc.  He was going to be baptized at one point but didn't. Yesterday the mom told us he has never interacted with missionaries the way he does with us and she felt it was the moment, and so did we, and we had been fasting and didn't even know the daughters had also--but for their dad to open his heart!!  It was SUCH an intense lesson with him rejecting it the first 3/4 of the time but we were patient, Ginger expressed all all all of her feelings and testimony, and the Lord blessed me to ask questions and use scriptures that helped him accept a small step to read the BOM and pray.  He has already had an answer and dream this is true just doesn't believe in Joseph Smith.  The way to fix that?  Testimony of the BOM.  Bingo.  Pray for Armando Gonzalez!

Welp don't have time left but I love you!  This church is true.  I am so blessed and so excited that this work never ever has to end, and the Lord always blesses us with His miracles!!  Let's pay attention to them!!  Share this wonderful news with those around you!!  I love you!

Hermana Bryan

Love My Mish

Hola Familia y Amigos!!!

Welp I'm gunna rush this but try and give as many details as possible, especially cuz I've been such a slacker with my journal lately that I know this will have to substitute for my journal :)

Ok, well Tuesday was a pretty hard, sensitive, emotional day for me and I didn't realize or understand why at first.  I felt like I wasn't good enough with the leaders and goals and numbers, and like I just want to be awesome and have my comp be awesome, etc.  During our Zone meeting I was upset and down, and then Elder Zepeda (our ZL) started saying that many of us don't have much time left in the mish and we have to give our all, etc etc and I literally started bawling without control and couldn't do anything to stop it, so I was silently looking down with tears streaming down my face (good thing I bought waterproof mascara lately! haha) and kleenex soaked, and I'm sure everyone in the Zone thinking I was a basket-case.

yep.

haha Then while walking in the street, and lessons failing and contacts rejecting us (which doesn't happen very often so made me think something was wrong with me, etc) I just looked around and my comp asked if I was ok and I started BAWLING in the street, and we sat on a bench and then it hit me what was wrong with me.  I had woken up that day with this huge profound sadness and I didn't even know why.  DUH, Hermana Bryan!  hahaha The news of my release date, etc really had impacted me because before, it was a looming reality and didn't hit me.  Welp Tuesday it for sure hit.  I bawled and expressed my feelings, my sadness, my love for the mish and these people, my desires to do my best and give my all, my fears, etc. etc.  It was good to get everything out and realize a lot a lot of things.  And then I was good to go hahaha oh geez.  "Maria, it's been EMOTIONAL!" :) 

Well after that bawl-fest, we went to Silvia!!  She told us she wants to be a missionary!  I mentioned something about joy and she asked, "Joy, is joy related to being blessed?" great question.  I asked her boyfriend what joy meant to him and he held up his recently received mission call.  Perfect definition :)

Wednesday we were trying to re-set our baptism goal for November cuz we really don't have many people set, and so we prayed about 3 and the Lord just gave us another answer to our prayers that it is 4.  So I just have to have faith and trust in the Lord!  Wednesday we got excited and full of animos and put together the backpack signs you can see in the picture to try a new way of contacting and getting people´s attention!  No one asked us, but a lot of people looked and looked and stared at us and so we are excited that we could plant some seeds these last few days with those! :)

We had a great lesson with William and got to know him better and more deeply. We had an awesome contacting experience and I literally felt like Ammon (and coincidently I had just read that chapter that morning!) We discerned through the Spirit a lady´s feelings and thoughts, and told her what we felt and she was surprised and asked how we knew, and I testitfied that we were called of a prophet of God and part of God's Spirit was in us to help us in this time, and we testified.  It was way cool.

Thursday was a great great great day.  I had felt like my best self after my bawl fest, like my best teaching was happening, like I was way more in tune with the Spirit and people's needs and doing what comes to mind.  It's so neat and I was so grateful to really FEEL like Christ's representative.

Wow we had an incredible experience with Silvia.  She came for her baptismal interview and before the interview we had a lesson with her.  She expressed the desire to postpone her baptism until the next week because there would be the opportunity that some family members would be able to attend, whereas this week no.  But nothing was sure if they would support her or not.  Well I was torn because I knew the blessings she would receive for completing that ordinance, but also how much I would want my family to be present at my baptism!  After teaching her and testifying, I felt the need to pull out the Liahona I had brought about the temples and show her pics of inside the temple and she said she felt so so happy and felt so peaceful.  But still was set on the next week.

I then felt like we should pray about it.  I felt prompted to testify about personal revelation and how my comp and I receive revelation together and we talk, make a decision, and then pray for a confirmation.  We all knelt down and Silvia prayed silently and said she wanted the 10th but wasn't sure.  I asked her to pray outloud and she prayed about the 10th and afterwards said, "That's strange, I didn't feel anything, and feel the same."  I then asked if it would be ok if I said the prayer and we prayed about the 3rd.  Well afterwards, I asked her how she felt and she looked at me widely and said, "I felt like something fell down over my body and continued down in my chest that was warm and tingly----is that an asnwer??!" YES!!!!!  She was so happy and then said, "Well I am determined now---I know for sure what I need to do and I am for sure."  

She is so so so awesome.

Friday I realized how much I love William and how much I want him to progress and how good he is!!!  Also it was so awesome practicing another musical number with our ZLs----I know that My Redeemer Lives--the EFY version.  We are all like bffs and it's so awesome to have that support here.

Saturday was a hard morning--we had a long, long, long and teary convo with my comp talking about some things and then having a mini comp inventory and then realizing that the situation that really was bothering us both inside was me leaving.  And I got to know my comp more, and how much she is scared for when I leave.  I had the same feelings and sadness and tears that I had Tuesday (just when I thought I had gotten it all out! haha).  Man it literally breaks my heart leaving the mission.  But ya I still have 6 weeks so I'm stoked for that!

Silvia's baptism!!!  Silvia and Kevin, her boyfriend, were dressed in white and it totally reminded us and we totally imagined them in the temple one day!!!  What a blessing the Gospel is!!!!   Her testimony was AWESOME!!!!!  And the musical number was incredible.  Silvia is really a chosen and elect of the Lord, and such a blessing to us.

Sunday Isaac blessed the sacrament and bore testimony!  William came to church and that was an answer to prayers and fasts because he didn't know if he would, but we got there and he was showering and getting ready already!  Silvia was just shining and SO SO happy!!!!  

There is lots and lots of opposition going on here, and we don't have people and our baptismal dates fell through, but we are praying for William, Ariana (who is the wife of an active member--Kevin's dad), and Aracely (a new awesome person) so please pray that they will accept and progress and be able to be baptized.  I know the Lord will provide and after opposition come the blessings!!

I love the Lord.  I love this Gospel and this work.  I am grateful for my trials because they help me become stronger!  I am grateful for you and your prayers and love.  THANK YOU.  I love how when we are down, the Lord sends his spirit and comfort and there is ALWAYS someone else who needs comfort and help and that experience yesterday in church helping someone who feels so alone and is going through some really hard stuff helped me so much and taught me so many things.  Why do I ever complain?!  The Lord is so merciful and loving.

Share the Gospel please!  The missionaries are under-used teachers.  I read an article that members have the power to find and missionaries the power to teach.

Silvia's Baptism!!!

I LOVE BEING A MISSIONARY!!!!        

The church is true :)

Love you,
Hermana Bryan

Happy Halloween!!

Jennifer and us at her Baptism!!!

Hola Familia y Amigos!!

Well this week has been another GREAT week in the mission!!!! Man I love it here.

So Tuesday we had a great verification with my comp and the ZLs and put new goals and some of the same ones.  Tuesday when lessons failed, I felt SO happy contacting and teaching, and my comp and I even put a baptismal date with a mere contact!!  Haha I had never done that before in my mish--we were beast mode that day! :) Also we were able to teach Ingrid--and finally find out her need and her fears and I felt the Spirit way strong and my comp totally beast-moded her goals in that lesson.  I was so proud!

So not sure if I told everyone about our rat problem (I know I told mom last Monday--we didn't do anything because we had found rat poop, etc in the house and had deep cleaned and unpacked and repacked everything and never found the rat!)  Well Tuesday, we bought venom and Tuesday night I put the blue venom cubes in bread and put them around the house excited to kill that thing.

Wednesday we woke up in the morning and my comp yelled out happily that the rat had eaten EVERYTHING!!!  So excited!  Then for some reason after comp study we looked in the kitchen and I lifted up the stove thing (it's a mini kitchen stove without an oven attached so just sits on the counter) and there were bread pieces and ALL of the venom cubes neatly tucked away and hidden.  The stupid, intelligent rat had eaten all the bread and hidden the cubes--like playing with our minds--making us think he had eaten everything!  I was soooo ticked haha.  Luckily we got other venom and he ate a bit every night and hasn't come in 2 days so hopefully he died and outside.  haha Oh the mission!

Wednesday we (the ZLs and us) practiced our musical arrangement of "I am a Child of God" for our baptism on Saturday--man this is something I have ALWAYS wanted to do in the mish is really make the baptisms special with awesome arrangements and we are finally doing it!!  Also had a lesson with William, and members accompanied us and supported him and he says he knows the BOM is true and the church is true, he struggles a bit with Joseph Smith but knows it's all connected but thinks God is calling him in his own church as well and he is ok there and doesn't need to change and doesn't receive his answer to change or be baptized yet.  Man it's frustrating but we are still praying for a miracle!

Also Wednesday I watched an MTC devotional from Elder Holland and it was INCREDIBLE!!  He used part of the same Do you love me, Feed my sheep thing but then said later on that a mission call is a call FOREVER!!!!!!!  And I started crying and felt so happy knowing that truth!  I'm so glad for that.

Thursday was a day of service for me to my comp and building her confidence.  I'm learning a lot with errors in my training but trying to do the best every day and making her feel good!  Thursday night I started feeling SUPER dizzy again to the point where I couldn't really see straight,  but my comp did awesome in guiding us by the Spirit to someone who hadn't let us in before but that night did, and it was amazing!  Betsabe.  We are hoping she progresses.

Friday I was super sick but we still left the house and practiced our songs and I just prayed and prayed through that opposition and Jennifer was our little beam of light that day making us happy and we got to bring her and her brother and cousin to a video night at the church and William also came and got to talk to the elders a bit and we saw Joseph Smith, the prophet of the Restoration.  He still didn't get his answer.  Man he is so great but ..... 

Also last week I didn't mention this because didn't know if we would be able to teach her, but we met a girl named Silvia last Sunday.  Her boyfriend introduced us to her this way: "Hi Hermanas, this is Silvia. She has come to church for a year and has a testimony of the BOM and would like to meet with you."  ummm Yes!!!!  She wanted to be baptized etc but the problem was she doesn't live here, and not even in our mission, so we didn't think we could teach her.  BUT the ZLs and assistants talked, and we got permission and were stoked to teach her and so grateful for this miracle and elect that fell into our hands!  The ZLs then started trying to pressure us to baptize her the next day or Sunday morning, etc and I reprimanded them telling them it was just to meet the goal, etc and they said no it's to not delay the day of her repentance and she wants this, etc etc.  They are great but almost every leader struggles with this, unfortunately.  

Well I was so confused in my mind and torn and didn't know if it was me being selfish to teach her and have the baptism be super wonderful and not rushed, but what really matters is the ordinance and maybe she did want this now etc.  Well my comp and I talked, talked, meditated, prayed and tried to understand answers like all night haha.  We finally prayed and got the answer and felt so so good and were happy to know that Silvia would be able to be baptized but not the next day.  Geez, those leaders! hahaha

Saturday DAD'S BIRTHDAY!!  and also Isaac's birthday!  Everything failed us that day but Jennifer's baptism was wonderful!  The song brought the Spirit and was really sweet, and Jennifer's testimony was so sweet. She is such a mature and sweet little girl.  What a blessing!

Sunday we were blessed with 8 people that came to church and it was the cute primary program.  In our morning study, I felt inspired to set goals for these last 7 weeks and I'm SO STOKED to be the BEST I can be yet!!  and give my ALL!!!  Well we felt SO happy seeing Isaac be sustained to receive the priesthood.  He told us he is so happy and has more friends, etc etc.  and Jennifer received the Holy Ghost, and I love the Spirit I always feel during those blessings.  

After church we met with Silvia and man the Spirit was SOOOO strong in that lesson, and when we extended the baptismal date for Nov 3 her boyfriend was so surprised and happy and she was so taken aback and refused twice because of certain things, but I felt so guided by the Spirit and Hna Diez also to be able to answer her doubts and questions, and then Silvia said, "When you guys were talking, I like felt or heard a thought that said, 'Why don't you just do it?!'"  We all said, "That's the Spirit!!!!"  and laughed and congratulated her and she is so excited!!!!!!

What a blessing and pure miracle from the Lord.  So that will be our baptism for this Saturday!  Pray all goes well.  Pray we can find more elect because we need more investigators and want to meet our goal of 4 this month and more than anything change lives and help the ward!

Also Sunday I received a phone call and it was Hno Frias and Hno Cruz from barrio Tarqui calling!!!  They were here at our house because they are good friends with the family that lives below us!  It was SO wonderful to be able to come home and visit with them for half an hour before we had to report and be inside.  What a blessing and tender mercy, and I just felt so full of gratitude and love to know wonderful people like them and feel part of their family and like nothing has changed even though it's been 10 months since I was in their ward!  Crazy how time flies.  I'm excited to share these people with you guys when we come back here! :)  It was a blessing to me to see how much they loved me and I them that they came to visit me and waited for 4 hours till we got home to visit.  

I love being a missionary.  With ALL my heart and soul.  I feel SO grateful!

Welp I was reading in Numbers 32:11-12 this week and realized that the Lord will not bless us if we don't WHOLLY follow Him.  In other words, in the end, we will receive the same reward as if we hadn't followed Him at all!  What good is that?!  With our ALL and in ALL things we need to follow Him.  I'm striving to do this every single day and to be better.

Let's do it together!  I love my Savior and this work and know it's true with ALL I have!!!  Have a WONDERFUL week!  LOVE YOU!

Hermana Bryan

More Miracles!!! Alma 26:27

Hermana Diez, Isaac, and Me

Hola Familia and Friends!!!!

So this week was a week of miracles and wow I just feel GRATEFUL to my Heavenly Father every day for being here.

So Tuesday was our DM and we have a new district leader--Elder Baptista from Brazil and he is super chill and supportive and his accent is crazy (a bit hard to understand because it's like Jamaican Spanish hahaha) it's cool though.  Also we just LOVE our ZLs--they are so so supportive and give us so much animos, etc

Also, I realized Tuesday that I'm harder on myself now than I ever ever ever was before, haha crazy!  That's what happens in the mish when we get closer to God and realize our potential and what we need to do to get there, and our weaknesses, but it's good because I keep myself in check and am always striving to be better and repent and rely on my Heavenly Father and He has blessed us SO much for it!!

I loved D&C 68:6 that day!

Tuesday night we taught Isaac--our investigator who has been ready forever (the other hermanas taught him also.)  But we have been waiting and talking to his parents for permission and they didn't want to give it to him, and the mom finally said, "Whatever," but said we had to talk to his dad; his dad is separated from his mom and NEVER comes to their home, etc etc. Lots of problems.  Well, we had fasted for a miracle for Isaac and Tuesday night we were teaching and I see inside the house that a man is there so I asked Isaac, "Is that your dad??!!!!"  He said yes and I just beaming looked at my comp and we taught an awesome lesson with the Spirit and Isaac said he wanted to be baptized and repent fully that week, and we told him and promised him with faith that if he bore testimony to his dad and prayed like crazy, his dad would sign.  We prayed like never before and had such faith that it would happen.  Really exercised our faith and not just hoped.

Wednesday we were leaving the apt and ran into Isaac and he pretended--his face all sad and everything and then burst into a grin and said his dad had been so touched he grabbed the paper and immediately signed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MIRACLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   Also Jennifer (the little girl on Sunday--the miracle) is so prepared and ready for her baptism.  What a blessing.  

Wednesday also, the Bishop came and accompanied us and we visited some families and he got so happy and like a little kid missionary again contacting people, etc.  It was great :)  He was way happy and excited about it.

Friday what a tender mercy.  The phone rang and it was the new assistant.  He said he had called to do a verification with Hna Diez and how our training was coming along.  He had lots of questions for Hna Diez and then asked me some questions about how I felt training, my fears, and then the MOST difficult question of all was: "What attribute do you have that no one else has and is why the Lord chose YOU and no one else to train Hna Diez that will bless her the rest of her life and mission?" ummmm HARD!!  I said the Spirit---working by the Spirit, and thought also of charity.  He then asked how we know if we are having success and like PME states, I said that it's when we work by the Spirit, love our investigators, work with diligence, etc and THEN come the numbers.  He loved that answer, haha, and at the end said thank you and he could tell we loved each other the way we interacted and spoke about one another and said he felt the Spirit strongly even though it was over the phone.  He said we make the mission easier for President and is happy with us.  He also said at the end that we will never know the extent of our success.  He said and promised us tons of success and that we would see the realizations of that in the celestial kingdom, and I started crying because I felt and knew it was true.  We will have success here--we are having it!  And will continue that way and the real day we will recognize all the fruits of our labors will be in the celestial kingdom and what joy!

Wow it was SO edifying and we felt the Spirit SO strongly.  Tender mercy for sure.

Also amazing meeting with the bishop and our WML and the bishop approving our ideas and adding some, and being SUPER excited to accompany us every Wednesday.  He said, "You know what hermanas?  Every Wednesday we are going to stop men in the street.  We are going to stop them and contact them because they have a family, and when we knock doors we often find everyone besides the man of the house, so if we upfront contact him and he accepts, his family will accept and we will baptize families."  AWESOME.  Also, we are doing a ward fast for the missionary work of Duran Ward.  Also some other ideas, and we are finally working all together and have their support and excitement and trust. What a blessing!

Saturday--Isaac's baptism!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  It was INCREDIBLE.  One of the BEST I've had here in the mission beause the Spirit was SO present.  The ZLs and us had practiced for 3 days, "Come Thou Fount" (me on the piano and my comp and them singing. Elder Zepeda has a raspy awesome cool voice so that was awesome.  I nicknamed him Elder Freddy Ashby and he got all happy because literally thought he couldn't sing).  Well, he was SO nervous because had solos and we practiced and sacrificed some hours of proselyting to make it really a special baptismal service.

William (our awesome investigator) and Isaac showed up all dressed up and it was so so awesome.  The musical number turned out perfectly and Isaac was crying and just thanked us a lot.  During the baptism, William turned around and said, "So when I get baptized it will be like that?"  "YES!" I said, hahaha.  William said afterwards he felt realy good and more willing to be baptized because he felt like God is calling him, but is a bit afraid I think!

Sat night we had a long long long convo, my comp and I, and I have realized that the mish is also for helping us communicate, prepare for marriage, help others prepare, etc.  haha Lots of stuff I've learned and had to put in practice. It was really good though.

Sunday William didn't come to church because he was tired :(  We had an awesome lesson with him but still thinks Catholicism is just as good, etc.  PRAY FOR HIM PLEASE!  

The bishop supports us a ton and showed that in his announcements on Sunday.

Issac received the Spirit and was stoked and so so so happy and changed.

What a blessing!  Well, I feel so blessed.  I've really learned the meaning of the promise in Alma 26:27 and know that is the key.  I love my Lord.  I love the obra misional!!!  I love this work and am so excited to continue in it forever.  We have the truth!!!  Share it :)

Love,

Hermana Bryan

Small Miracles

The meal to break our fast--sad!

Hola familia!!!!!

Well this week has been a week.  Full of adversity and trials but many blessings also.

Tuesday was a Zone meeting and wow was it incredible!!!  You know, after the announcement of Pres Monson, it seems like the devil's big army is also increasing and becoming more powerful, or working harder because there has been TONS of opposition lately and worldwide.  We have heard of mish presidents saying 8pm at home or other things like that.  Well the Leaders taught us that day about what Pres Amaya had taught them the day before, and supposedly he taught them for 2 whole hours about the law of chastity.  Crazy. We are missionaries.  Our mish president taught them for 2 hours about that but the things they taught us were perfect, and I realized that man the Lord needs us way more virtuous and way more clean now than ever before because Satan is working HARD.  They talked a lot about thoughts and letting virtue garnish our thoughts, and that we have to 100% give and control our minds and our hearts. They said, "Pres Amaya has announced that we can go to the temple."  (At that point, mind you, I heard that and let out a squeal and covered my mouth SOOO excited hahahaha) and THEN they said...."in our minds."  bahahahaha----let down--BUT he said to remember EVERYTHING and to literally try to go to the temple in our minds to help us.  True.  I have been reading Moses and Abraham and it helps a lot.  They gave me the opportunity to speak for 5 minutes un-announced, and I bore testimony about giving our heart, and bore testimony about the difference between the 3rd and 4th missionaries, and I like them am trying every day to be better about this and give the Lord and show him that I want to give ALL my heart and will.  It was such an uplifting meeting.  Our leaders are awesome.

Also I felt SO proud of Hna Diez during her verification and in our practices!!  That day we went to visit William and WOW, can I say I haven't felt the Spirit that strong in a while talking to someone I felt was SO elect?!!!  It was his birthday and he still made time to see us and we talked and taught about the BOM.  Wow he is awesome.

Wednesday we did lots of contacting and visited Janet and she said that she still hadn't received an ansewr, that she didn't feel anything at the conference or in her prayers or reading, etc.  Man that night I was praying like crazy for her, to know how to help her and some thoughts came to my mind and I immediately wrote them down (first time in my life that's happened so fast after a prayer.) They were to take her to a baptism and find one to take her to.  Well amazingly enough, the next day we received a message from the Hnas in our zone that they had a baptism that day and needed people to come.  ANSWER! :) 

So Thursday that was cool to receive that answer.  During planning session man, I killed my brain and mind thinking and thinking and praying for what Janet and Marcos and Melani needed.  For like an hour we were just thinking and passing around ideas.  haha  Also, I have relied a lot lately on the power of prayer.  When I´m down?  PRAYER.  When I don't feel like I can do it all?  PRAYER.  Kneeling, silently, in my heart, walking, in the bus, everwhere.  I'm so grateful for the power of prayer and for a loving Heavenly Father who hears me.

So we went to the baptism and brought Janet, Marcos, Melani and Isaac too, whom we are praying his dad signs his baptism permission because he is SO ready!  Pray for a miracle!

Friday during 12 week program, we were practicing over and over again, and I made Hna Diez re-do some practices to help teach the point we wanted to work on and the last practice with Ronald (our investigator in Condor), she asked inspired questions and then testified of God's love for me and how special Ronald was and he shouldn't forget that, etc etc.  I started crying because I felt as Ronald had felt, and knew it was the Spirit, and it was so amazing because it was the exact same things, questions, and counsel and testimony that Hna Alvarez and I had given him way back when.  Hna Diez had no idea about that but I did, and felt the Spirit guiding Hna Diez so much because that's exactly what had happened and had been said in real life!  I was so proud of her for listening to the Spirit and applying everything we have worked on and I've tried to reiterate, and it was so rewarding as a trainer to experience that.  I felt SO emotional after that and grateful and humbled by the Lord to experience His Spirit and that He helps me train and that she is learning and progressing so much---it's touching and I feel very imperfect, humbled, yet SO grateful for the opportunity and responsibility.  It was so wonderful.  I had been praying so hard for the Lord's guidance in training and to be able to be better, etc and it was an answer to my prayers to realize that it's ok---we are doing things ok and He will bless us.

Also I felt so sad to leave the mission---I feel SO grateful for the mission!!!  So excited I still have 2 months :)

Well after that awesome experience came opposition----like always right? :) Janet told us that night that she hadn't felt anything, she was confused and honestly didn't know if she had the will to do this or wanted it.  She told us she felt way bad but if we could give her time.  (breaking up) And I didn't have the words to say or the guidance of the Spirit in that moment---I felt lost and had no idea what to do and teared up a bit but we just bore testimony and expressed our love.  That night Elder Santillan, our DL was actually way nice and a comfort and blessing. Prayers work :)

Saturday I studied a lot about HOPE (Dad how did you know?! :) ) and love love love PMG and James E. Faust what he says there.  We were leaving to go to a meeting with our WML and we were getting off the bus and somehow someone robbed our cellphone from my backpack.  When I realized it, I freaked out and we used the cell of our WML to call, and the guy answered and didn't really want to give us the phone back, etc and we tried everything, and then I found a call booth and had to call our ZLs and inform them, and turns out they tried to track the guy down and he was supposedly going to give it to them but never showed up, etc. What a pain!  I felt horrible because that was my fault and responsiblity, and for being careless or unaware happened and was shocked with the kinds and forms of opposition Satan uses to get us down or try to ruin our day or communication process!  Ha Satan will never win.  So that's been fun trying to find ways to call our leaders every night from member's phones, etc. What a pain!

Saturday at lunch, the family was asking me to speak English and the girl asked me, "How many brothers do you have?"  My answer without even thinking about it was, "I have dos brothers."  Wow hahahahaha.  We were all dying laughing and my comp said, "SEE I TOLD you you can't speak English anymore!!"  She says that when I speak English I don't have an American accent anymore.  Oh geez haha.  Also, she said this morning that last night as I was sleeping I began talking (I was having a dream with Janet and how to help them hahaha) and I was talking in Spanish.  Yep, so I'm gunna have problems starting BYU again in Jan!  hahaha It's ok--I like that problem :)

Saturday we went to visit Isaac and went to try and visit William (on Friday he told us he was a bit confused.  He is WAY Catholic so this is a bit new and hard for him to accept.)  Answer to prayers was that he was home and had time and had read everything we left him to read and was excited and anxious to learn and had lots of questions and wanted to learn more!  We taught him the Restoration and he understood everything, and Isaac during the lesson bore testimony as if he was a member!  So awesome.  He wrote down his commitments and accepted to come to church with us, etc.

Sunday we passed by for Isaac and WIlliam and Isaac was ready, but we called William's name and it seemed like he wasn't home. We used Isaac's phone to call him and I tried twice and he wasn't there.  I said, "Well let's wait a bit"....I was NOT going to give up faith or hope or trust.  haha  I wasn't accepting the fact that he wasn't home.  We waited and waited and it was late and nothing, and before leaving I asked if we could call him one more time.  This time he answered and said he would come down quickly because he WAS home but had fallen asleep accidentally!!!  WHAT A BLESSING!!!  And a confirmation that the Lord is for sure trying our patience and perseverance and how much we want this.  He and Isaac came with us to testimony meeting and it was awesome!!!  Every time a testimony was weird, the RMS of the ward saved the day and they ALL testified about the Restoration.  Also, there were references that came and 7 investigators that were there!!  I felt like I was in Condor again--what a blessing.  Then after sac meeting a little girl came up to us (who didn't know us) and randomly said, "I want to be baptized!"  We asked her how old she was and she said she was 9!  Her mom is a member but hasn't baptized her, and she wants to be baptized and now. What a MIRACLE and answer to our fast and prayers.  Fasting brings all these miracles in the mission---that's why William was there, and references, and this little girl Jennifer will be baptized, and the Lord will help us meet our goals.  What a blessing!

We also had a meeting with the Bishop and he, trusting us a ton, basically dumped all his loads on us and epxressed his feelings and hopes, etc.  Poor guy--he needed that and said in 6 yrs of being Bishop it was only the 2nd or 3rd time he wanted to take the time to sit down and analyze recent converts, goals, hopes, opinions, etc.  We felt grateful that he trusted us and that now we know more of what the ward needs (which is a ton---they have lots of challenges) and where to start.

We didn't have lunch on Fast Sunday because the Hna couldn't give it to us, so that's cool. We came home and had no food in our house so we broke our fast with: ramen, cooked cabbage, and popcorn.  hahahaha Wow, I will never take for granted a Fast Sunday again!  

The Lord tried my patience and perseverance and desires again yesterday with a strong migraine and feelings, etc etc--trials--and as we were leaving to go out to preach again, I was crying silently and just praying.  Janet didn't open her door to us even though they were there---that was rough but we have faith that the Lord's will WILL be done and all these things make us stronger and more grateful for the miracles that do happen.

I KNOW my Heavenly Father is aware of us and loves us and I'm so amazed each time He blesses us with His miracles.  He loves us so so much and knows what we need!  This is the truth.  Missionary work is so wonderful and I'm so excited to continue in this work all of my life and for all eternity.  The Lord lives!!! He loves us!  How blessed I feel to be a missionary.

I love you!!!

Hermana Bryan